An eloquent imbecile

This is now 10 years old and much has changed, I am 51, no spoilers required there, and a single man after the break up of my marriage recently. On top of this I have spent the last 10 years working within the personality disorder community to help my peers, and receive their help too. I worked in a children’s home for very challenging young men and enjoyed it immensely, apart from the minor assaults every now and again. My perspective on my mental health conditions has changed and reformed over and over which has been traumatic at times but also allowed me to grow and develop into a proper adult , well for most of the time.

I now work for within a group set up to transform the services within Kent and Medway for people with serious mental health issues , including personality disorder which is now described as Complex emotional difficulties.

I haven’t edited the the original About me because it sets a bar for me and most of it is true to a lesser degree

My name is Steve Goldsack, I’m 41 years old , married to Sarah and I have three amazing kids. I love reading, watching movies and good television, I’m mad keen on Chelsea football club and I love the company of my dearest friends, on top of all this good stuff I have Borderline Personality Disorder.

I wont go into the ins and outs of what this means from a psychiatric point of view, they don’t really agree with their own definitions within the mental health community, they don’t even agree with what to call it so I cant be bothered to rake over all that stuff.

Essentially all this matters not at all, all that counts is the effect is has on me, my family and those around me. The very fact I have included others in my description of my problems shows a marked improvement in my management of the condition, up until recently I would have been oblivious to anyone elses position in my life let alone any effect I may be having on them. My main problem is one of extremism in my thinking, everything is divided neatly into good or bad, evil or good, for me or against me there was no room for the actuality which is usually, but not always, somewhere in between. I have paranoia to a lesser degree and bouts of deep dark depression in my unguarded times, but these things are just symptoms of a greater problem which I have spent a good length of time working out, not curing but developing methods of coping and living a normalish life.

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